Why did Bella have nightmares?
Firstly, the insecure environment in Bella’s personal life happens during her trip to hill at Forks and at Jacob’s house in La Push. The insecurity comes from the threat of the dangerous vampires. It makes Bella’s distracted from her normal life. She feels such in terror every day. She cannot go outside freely since the vampires are running after her and she does not know exactly where they are. This condition makes her insecure with her environment. The threat that causes the environment becomes insecure is the real thing which is happened in Bella’s life. There is nothing she can do to resist the harmful situation away from her environment that is successful in making Bella suffers from the reality anxiety. It can be seen when she travels alone and one of the dangerous vampires comes to kill Bella. Her feeling of insecurity is shown by Bella’s attitude when the vampire threatens her. She is breathless, desperate to distract the vampire, taking a furtive and stagger step back. This attitude of insecurity also shows her anxiety to the threat that is coming
right after her. Bella’s irresistible anxiety can be seen in her reaction after the vampire is gone. She cannot think and move; her arms and legs are shaking and she cannot move the horror, shown how
she is afraid. This is clearly shown that Bella is suffering from the reality anxiety since the threat and danger are coming from Bella’s outer world.
Secondly, the insecure environment in Bella’s social life also leads her to suffer from the reality anxiety. The insecurity is also experienced her father, Charlie, her best friend, Jacob, and strangers at Forks. This insecurity makes Bella more insecure with the environment. In her
Her everyday life Bella keeps on worrying that the vampire will come to her house. It can also harm her father. She keeps on worrying everyday that the house where they live is not safe. She feels that the
situation is under her control if it is happened to Charlie. She is afraid that her father, who is sleeping besides her, will also be killed by the vampires. As shown in the following quotation, “The tremors rocked me until my teeth chattered” (Meyer, 2006, p. 250). Her anxiety is shown by her reaction of tremor that makes her teeth chattering. In this case, the reaction of Bella is caused by the condition of the environment which is also insecure for her father, Charlie . It means that the insecurity of the environment towards her father makes Bella
suffer from the reality anxiety.
Moreover, the threat also puts her best friend, Jacob in danger after he commits himself to protect Bella. Bella’s insecurity can be seen in the following quotation, “None of us were safe! Jacob the very least of all, if he was trying to put himself between Victoria and Charlie… between Victoria and me” (Meyer, 2006, p.316).
It clearly shows Bella’s insecurity feeling her. The statement that no one is safe whether Jacob protects her or not, shows that she already feels insecure towards the environment. She cannot even imagine
the situation if Jacob is also getting involved between her and Victoria. Imagining that, Bella starts to feel anxious. She feels it is not safe for Jacob to get involved in her problems. She does not want
Jacob to get hurt by the vampires because of her.
Furthermore, Bella feels more insecure because of the killing of some strangers at Forks. The strangers are also attacked by the dangerous vampire, Victoria. The threat that also harms strangers, makes Bella more insecure towards the environment as can be seen in the following quotation , “[…] Victoria was here (312). Looking for me. Killing strangers in the woods.” (313).
It shows that the insecurity does not happen only to Bella but also to strangers at Forks. Knowing that, Bella’s anxieties emerged. The reactions of Bella after she knows about the strangers, who are
killed by the vampire, show her anxiety. She is unable to speak and sweating a lot. In this condition she starts to suffer from reality anxiety.
